Sparkling Butterfly

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Sparkling Butterfly

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I write poetry, stories, dreams, and experiences. I also create art, music, videos, and other stuff. I struggle with depression, schizophrenia, borderline personality disorder, existential nihilism, and other problems. I’m a former Jehovah Witness. I still believe but, I'm not part of the organization.

These are my psychedelic thoughts.

A glimpse into my mind. Journaling helps me organize, acknowledge, and release the mess of thoughts and emotions in me. I also document things in my life.

I often talk about my beliefs. If you don't like religion then these may not be for you.

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Dreaming About Holes

December 12, 2024

Evo Numy


I went to bed and awoke the next morning. Two more rectangular holes appeared next to the original four. Now, there were six in a row. When I looked at the two new holes on the right, a terrible sensation came over me. I was supposed to remember something about these holes, but the memory was so terrifying that my brain would not let me remember. I called everyone back outside to look at the two new holes... [READ MORE]

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The Blue Light Dream

December 10, 2024

Snickerdoodle


I felt myself drift into nothingness as the light grew stronger. I was forgetting who I was. My memories were being erased. The love for my friends and family grew dim and faded. I was being emptied of myself and being filled with blue light.... [READ MORE]


What is the difference between dreams and memories anyway? Memories are records of experiences. If something happens in a dream and I remember it, that makes it an experience, therefore it's a memory… right? How can I tell what is a dream or memory?.... [READ MORE]

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The Change Part 2

November 09, 2024

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I touched the place humans are afraid to go to. The place that causes unimaginable amounts of anxiety when you try to remember it. Your mind automatically blocks it out and forces you to forget because its weight is too much for the fragile human mind.... [READ MORE]

I like to write short stories in my free time.

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ETERNITY II

By: The Mad Prophet Emilio



Like, what actually happened? What did these people experience to make them believe? All these hundreds of thousands of occurrences can’t just be coincidence or the imagination. Is the human mind truly strong enough to alter one’s memories? One’s sight, hearing, smell, and touch? [READ MORE]


From stardust, we will return to elementary particles.
Everyone we’ve known, all that we’ve seen,
everything we’ve experienced will be gone.
We will be stardust.
... [READ MORE]

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The Parable of the Butterfly

By: The Mad Prophet Emilio


I run after the cloud and reach out to capture a butterfly with wildly flailing arms.
The numerous wings within the cloud slice through my fingers and then my slices become dices.
In a desperate attempt for a small nibble of the things that have been promised to me, I pick up my dice and gamble away my flesh and soul.
Impatient for a taste, I throw the dice at the cloud and strike a defenseless butterfly.
“Give me a taste LORD.” I shout greedily..... [READ MORE]

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ETERNITY

By: The Mad Prophet Emilio



“Is this what I must do?” I cried out, “This cannot be true. I’m a liar, thief, cheater, kleptomaniac, coward… I don’t mean to stir up your anger but, is this actually you?” The wind picked up, two geese flew overhead. Bring their minds back to Eternity. A strange smile slowly spreads across my face. “You must be cray.” I say.... [READ MORE]

These are musics I've made. They're free to download on my SoundCloud.

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Depression, insecurities, love, loss, beliefs, nihilism. The feels in a more artful form.

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Fungus Among Us

December 29, 2024

Evo Numy


Fungus,
Beings of life and death.
The network and communicate in ways we cannot understand.
Thinking, adapting, planning.
Intelligence unparalleled.... [READ MORE]

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A Poem From Eve to Adam

November 23, 2024

Evo Numy


Do you remember when the stars were still in the sky?
Time went by so slowly.
It flowed so differently my dear.
The stars were so close,
We'd look up at the sky and admire the spectacle set before us.

IDo you remember how beautiful the sky used to be?
Before we set time free?
I miss those endless days with you
Because they truly were endless. [READ MORE]

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Plants are Rad Man

December 08, 2024

Evo Numy


I contemplate a plant,
Hundred of thousands of cells working together.
The harmony of life in an unconscious being.
What can’t humans be like that?
Millions of billions of beings
Could work in harmony.

I contemplate humanity with revulsion,
Why can’t humans work in unison
To create a better future for ourselves and our children?
To heal the harm we’ve done to the Earth.
To take care of ourselves and each other.
To live in harmony. [READ MORE]

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The Mad Poet Emilio

November 12, 2024

The Mad Poet Emilio


I look at my aged parents:
verbally abusive,
emotionally manipulative,
argumentative towards each other.
I know I'll be the same kind of parent to any kids I have,
so I won't have any.
I don't want to turn into my parents.
So I hope I'll have friends when I'm old.
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Weird thoughts and imagery to pollute your mind.

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