I wish you success in everything you do. I'm still your #1 supporter if that means anything. Live a full life, find someone that brings you happiness, accomplish all you wish to accomplish, and don't let the world keep you down because of your imperfections. .... [READ MORE]

I come to.
I learn i am not who I thought I was.
Who was i talking to?
What is this place within me?
I create fantasies in my head that feel real.
I go to a place that does not exist.
I remember going there but cannot remember what happened.
This body moves but i do not control it. [READ MORE]

“We see the blue rocks now too. Does that mean we see as you do?” The man asked.

“Yes but not completely. You see what I see, but do you really see my point of view? Everything we say and do means nothing. This conversation right now, means nothing.”

“We will remember this conversation for a short time. Then we will move on with our lives and forget this memory. The rocks will turn back to candy.... [READ MORE]

My memory doesn’t work the same. All my memories feel equally distant now. For example, I can recall/feel the pain of something that happened to me yesterday and something that happened in my childhood with the same clarity. I can remember something that happened an hour ago and something that happened 20 years ago with the same vividness. I don’t feel the passage of time with my memories. It’s hard to explain but… My memories are events that have happened at the same time, just in a different order.... [READ MORE]

Im so fucking weird.
I love it.
I write poetry in the dark.

I watch the stars go by.
I listen to the wind,
Watch the trees caressed by the wind.

I stand in the garden at midnight because
I’m a weirdo
And I’m not afraid to be one.
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…Why do i bother writing you letters? Don’t get me wrong, i absolutely love writing to you. I’ve never been able to express myself this deeply. I’ve never felt so able to share my deepest thoughts and feelings, the things that are closest to my heart. even though i love opening up to you and and enjoy you opening up to me; i just feel like this is futile at the end of the day. How do you do it? Justify a reason to keep going? [READ MORE]

I have recently discovered that a certain pattern of movements repeats quite frequently and that specific groupings of these movements written down can manifest physical, abnormal effects. I have been able to reach the source of these mathematical abnormalities through painstaking exploration and experimentation.

The source is called the God of Numbers. I have taken this source for myself and have become a God. With my ascension, our civilization is now entering the “Era of Gods.” I have seen a plethora of Gods out there to discover but, only those worthy will be able to take the mantle.

I have left this journal to start your journey into Godhood. I am the first, the guide, to help calculate your path to Godhood. Through me, you will discover the God you are meant to be.... [READ MORE]

Another mundane day. You do your daily duties, like a robot. Numb, going through the motions. Doing what is expected of you. For you do not have the energy for anything else. As you unfeelingly go through the day. Our paths cross.

I greet you and give you a warm smile. You feel something stir within you. Who is this? What is this feeling? “Hello, how are you?” I say.

You feel tears welling up. How is she so happy? Why can’t I be happy? Tears fall. “I want to be happy.” You sob, embarrassed to cry like this in front of a stranger.... [READ MORE]

I look at my aged parents:
verbally abusive,
emotionally manipulative,
argumentative towards each other.
I know I'll be the same kind of parent to any kids I have,
so I won't have any.
I don't want to turn into my parents.
So I hope I'll have friends when I'm old.
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I look at my aged parents:
verbally abusive,
emotionally manipulative,
argumentative towards each other.
I know I'll be the same kind of parent to any kids I have,
so I won't have any.
I don't want to turn into my parents.
So I hope I'll have friends when I'm old.
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Dear Mother,
I don’t love you that much
But I still care about you.
I see you tried your best even though
You were so mentally fucked up
Because that is what the World did to you.

I promise to do my best to be the change I want to see in the world.
But to do that,
I have to lay my feelings bare
And bring a lifetime of pent up words on you all at once.
Sorry if you ever read or listen to this.
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Burnout, living, expensive, budget, loan, work, broke, debt, greedy corporations, used, vacation.

Work, sleep, dreams, try, hope-
Work, change, hopeless, motivation-
Broke, life event, people, world, unhappy.

Work, boiling, passion, change, hopelessness, try-
Work.
Try, hope, burnout.
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